love letters to the world; 01

I need to start writing weekly again. I need to be able to express and splurge and word vomit else it gets all caught up in my mind and I end up either being irritable, or eating it away. Which doesn’t help for the mind or the waistline.

I went for my first run in over two months today, after I hurt my knee doing squat jumps with Jesse in the park. I mean who ever thought that was a good idea with a two year old!? Another brilliant moment there Claudia. The run was good though. I’ve been using an app named Aaptiv that costs; it’s £8 or so a month but you have access to unlimited classes and a personal trainer in your ear. I did a 30 minute running intervals class and burnt around 350 calories. Breakfast was two Deliciously Ella almond and chia bites (this recipe is an updated version from the one I use) and lunch was leftover lentil curry with cauliflower rice. It feels fucking good taking charge.

I ordered a drone. A Mavic Pro. Going to take it out on Friday to some open land and play. Just want to shake myself up a bit this year – learn new things and experiment with new equipment. I’m feeling super frustrated that I don’t have the freedom in my life to just shoot whenever, wherever. That I can’t just wake up and go out and just express. I know that sounds a bit wanky, but it does end up just becoming pent up. I know I know, devil on my shoulder, I could spend a considerable more time working on this very thing than I do but just the whole balancing of work and gym and friendships and parenting is often a joy and often feels a bit lonely too. When I’m running I feel like I ought to be working, when I’m with friends I feel like I ought to be running, when I’m working I feel like I can’t justify paying the fees for Jesse to be at nursery when I’m spending a lot of the day on Facebook and Pinterest. Sigh.

Anyway, I’m inspired by this video today. I love this man. I love the grit and the art and I don’t care that he was an idiot on Twitter. The light and the monochrome in the video is lush.

And, one of my favourite images that I’ve taken recently. Serenity exemplified….